Dear Paul Allen,

I tested my dilemma again tonight. After giving the Blazers five games off since watching them lose to Cleveland(they won all five, as you know), I turned the game on tonight midway through the 4th quarter. I'm sorry, but I swear it's me. I wonder if the only free throws Rudy has missed this year are the ones when I've been watching. I know Blake's are! And I still haven't seen Travis make a bucket. This kind of feels like blackmail, but what am I to do? Just not watch for the good of the team and the city? That's a pretty huge sacrifice. And so far I haven't been able to make it.